I feel good.
Really good. Motivated. Positive about my future. Maybe I don’t look so gross afterall. I’m 5’9” and weigh about 158lbs.
I eat good. Clean and healthy, with the occasional cheat that happens when I’m unmotivated. But I’m feeling in control about that. Now I finally do.
I exercise, and my body has changed a lot.
I do my body well, I treat it as a healthy person should. Okay except for the cigarettes (less than 10 a day, only in the morning during school. I can go without it but kinda don’t want to yet. I know it’s unhealthy but it’s the only unhealthy thing I do.)
I drink only water and tea. Alcohol only when I go out. The last time I went out was New Year’s eve. Wow I’ve got to go out soon, I have to loosen up a bit!
I sleep fairly enough. I mostly go to sleep by 11 pm and wake up at 6.30 am. That’s 7 and a half hours. I think that’s good and healthy.
Why do I keep thinking I’m not doing enough? That I’m worthless?
Maybe because Im not thinking positively enough. Or because I don’t see how good I treat myself.
Writing this down is helping me so much. I have to do this more often.
I have to stop thinking about the future, thin me. I have to start thinking abut the present. I’m creating that person day in, day out. I have to believe in myself.
Life is happening now, it’s not waiting for me to loose this weight. The clock won’t run slower, it won’t wait for me. Time is passing by. I have to make the best out of every day, and I will.
If anyone is reading this… I want you to know: You are all amazing. I’m finding myself with the help of all of you. You mean a lot to me. We all have a goal, maybe it’s not the same, but we are all chasing our dream, and I believe all of you will make it come true. And if I can believe in you, there is no way I can’t believe in me too.
I love you, because you make me feel good about myself. You have a positive influence on me, and I want to thank you for that.
From now on, I’ll be more personal on here. Doesn’t matter if noone reads this. But if one day, someone feeling like me till now, reads this, I hope it will help them feel better.
Stay strong, and stay positive, because it’s the only way to be happy.
